Chronically Parenting

Dear Future Boyfriend, I'm sorry that I'm not like any 'normal' girl I'm sorry that I'm in pain most days I'm sorry that we might need to cancel things last minute I'm sorry that we might be late eating at your favourite restaurant I'm sorry if I moan I'm sorry if some days I take it out on you I'm sorry if some days I'm needy and need hugs I'm sorry if sometimes you visit and my house is a mess - I just haven't been able to clean it I'm sorry my weight goes up and down so my figure might not be what you enjoy I'm sorry if what you get isn't what you expect But what I give in return is so much more than you could imagine Not only is it just me but I have an amazing son too I have a massive heart that has so much love to give When you're old and your joints are aching - who could understand more than someone who's already aching? There's more to me than crohns disease or fibromyalgia or any ot...

So recently I spent two weeks in hospital (story of my life). I got there incredibly weak and tired and because of how dehydrated I was I was really tachycardic. I was struggling to eat as swallowing food hurt so bad and when I did finally swallow it I was sick straight away. Even with me not keeping the food down I was going to the toilet up to 60 times a day. I had an endoscopy which showed I had a hiatus hernia which was causing acid in my oesophagus which caused slight inflammation which is why I couldn't swallow food without it hurting like hell. Problem after that was why was I going to the toilet so much? Bile Acid Malabsorption or Diarrhoea (BAM) is a cause of chronic diarrhoea with the patients having their bowels open several times a day. There can be a number of reasons why patients get this condition and these have been placed in to three types: Type 1: Bile acid malabsorption, secondary to ileal resection, or ileal inflammation Crohn’s disease, ileal resections ...

So 3rd January 2016 I officially moved into my house in Axminster, Devon. I'm officially 140 miles from anyone I know - from my family and my friends. I know that this is 100% the best decision for Cory and the best place to raise him. To say I miss my friends and family is an understatement. Feels like my friends are drifting away from me. Even though I'm the one that's moved it feels like they're the ones who are distanced. I felt so good when I first moved here I was waking up with a smile on my face. It went down hill when I had an awful colonoscopy which turned into a small operation - something I'm still really suffering from. The blood I'm losing every day means I'm lacking severely in energy. I've had a lot to worry about this past month especially and I don't think people understand how hard it is to be on your own coping through it all. I'd love a hug. I'd love more chats with friends. I'm overwhelmed with everything - I ...