Chronically Parenting

I havent updated lately as it seems there's a lot going on since I left hospital. I needed to dial 111 a couple of times due to me having allergic reactions to everything I eat. I come out in a rash all over my body even after a few bites of toast. A biscuit makes my skin itch constantly. Doctors made an 'emergency' appointment for an allergy test which is 14th July. I see my gp a couple of times a week and every time they say I need to be admitted. After feeling my stomach again, I now have three blockages going on. It's agony, I can feel them when I breathe. I finally saw a dietician today who was absolutely amazing and definitely someone worth talking to. The scales said I was about 8 stone but, after feeling my stomach she thinks a stone of that is bulk from the blockages so, she thinks I'm about 7 stone. She was worried about how dehydrated I am and tried to get me admitted there and then for a fluid drip. She understood why I didn't want to be admitte...

Recently, I had someone ask me where 'Happy Annie' has gone...since then I've done nothing but wonder when I first started losing myself.  Was it after my op? Maybe when I started realising that the people I thought were there for me weren't? When I found out the operation I had didn't really help me?  I don't know when it was, but I know I want to come back.  What I need are positive friends around me who I can trust with my life. I need people to believe in me, not ignore me and stop inviting me places because of the opinion they have on me. I don't need to be treated like an invalid.  The thing that frustrates me the most is that I know I would be different to my friends than they are with me if the tables were turned. Frequent text messages and visits would be a daily thing for me.  This week I've had to move back into my parents house, it's really knocked my confidence as I've been moved out five years almost. Now, I can barely look after my...