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Getting Through

So, finally, after weeks of losing blood from the back end, being sick and fainting; I finally ended up going to A&E at Sandwell General Hospital.
I was scared, I didn't want to go..which is why I waited so long to go in, I knew I'd be admitted.
Came in and the doctor took one look at me and decided I was staying. In goes the cannula and up goes the fluid. She took bloods and they found me a bed.
Bloods came back I'm dehydrated and I may as well have been diagnosed with starving myself with the use food has been to me.
So, here I am in absolute agony. The gastro team come to see me and now I'm awaiting an MRI scan, colonoscopy and endoscopy. When the doctors 'gently' press on my tummy I wanna punch them round their face.
I'm on 12 hourly fluids, I'm waiting for the nutrition team to see me as I'll possibly need TPN feeds, I've been referred to the dietician to help me gain weight as I'm now under 8 stone, my oxygen levels keep dropping and I'm on morphine for the pain and I'm just really genuinely struggling.
I miss my son more than anything, talking to him on the phone breaks my heart but he makes me incredibly proud to be his mommy.
The people who have text me, called me, visited me or even commented on a facebook status are amazing. They have kept me positive.
I don't know how long I have in here, or if I'll need surgery...but I know the people to welcome me out are the ones worth keeping in my life forever.

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