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Mental Health Awareness Week 2019

So this week is mental health awareness week - so I thought I'd share my journey: I started suffering the age of sixteen. I started showing symptoms of crohns disease from the age of four; but I wasn't diagnosed until almost eighteen. I was in a room with a gastroenterologist consultant who said I was lying for attention. I was lay naked whilst she checked my body for signs of self harm and asking me questions like 'do you starve yourself to look good?', 'do you get the least amount of attention in your house?', 'have you ever been sexually abused', the list went on. I was crying and begging her to believe there was something wrong with me and I'm not an attention seeker. She agreed to one final colonoscopy as long as I agreed to see a psychiatrist 'when it comes back clear'. As strange as it may seem - being diagnosed the day of that colonoscopy (which was performed by a different consultant) was one of the happiest moments of my life. It ...

I don't know how you do it

For a while now that's what I've heard - 'I don't know how you do it' Truth is: I don't know myself. I started a new job in February, I work around 25 hours a week and I do love it. I've gone from housebound, scared to leave the house, no friends close by, no adult conversation and just feeling all round lonely and like my son deserves better. Throughout working hard I've been having tests done at Bristol. These are just the conditions wrong with my bowel: Colonic inertia Bile salt malabsorption Crohns disease Hypersensitive rectum I've prolapsed twice whilst working. Twice my intestines have decided to pop out and say hi! I've drove myself to the hospital, had gas and air to have it put back in, and returned to work the day after. I'm exhausted, I'm sore, I'm at the end of my tether of this happening. But at the same time I'm proud. Proud of pushing through, proud of not giving up, and proud for not falling apart. Only...